Text Message

This will be a short and sweet post. However, I think it is very important to share.

I received a text message today that said this....

"Hey you were in my dream today...I was telling u not to give up on God and we just hugged and cried together...I remember touching your stomach and it's like we both felt the spirit moving...it ended with us smiling and happy...just want to encourage your guys ...I'm always praying for y'all...love ya!!"

I almost cried. The text came totally unexpected, from someone totally unexpected. I think its awesome how people around you are thinking of you, and praying for you even when you can't pray for yourself. Friends and family are angels who keep us going when we feel like we can't go anymore.

This text message has touched me on so many levels. She will never know how her simple text message changed not only my day, but my LIFE.

I love you, Dekeatra!

Thanks again!

"The love of a family is life's greatest blessing"



Now What?

It didn't work. We are not pregnant. Even though it seemed as if God himself had his hand on every little step I took last month. It's like no matter what, there is always something preventing this from happening. I can't even begin to find words to describe what it felt like when I got my cycle. It had already been a pretty bad week all around, this was just the icing on the cake.

I tried explaining to my husband that each time this happens, each time I get pregnant and have nothing to show for it, or each time I think we are pregnant and we are not, I lose a little piece of my heart.

I'm really just in a bad place right now. I feel like I am living this life that is not my own. Although very blessed in so many area's, it almost feels like there was a mistake in the plan. Like this life would be fine for someone else, just not me. I never imagined that this would be my struggle. I know we all struggle with things in life, I just thought my struggle would be something else, something small, and something that could be fixed easily.

I don't really know what else to do. I am about ready to give up. I know that sounds sad, and like I'm quiting but really, it is so hard. They say prayer works, but does it really? I called upon everyone I knew to pray for us, and nothing. What is the point of praying if God already has his plan set?

What is the point?