So in love

Wow! I never knew I could love like this. I stare at him sleep. I can't get enough of how he smells. I hate hearing him cry. I love when he grabs my finger. I love when he smiles. I love when he makes those precious little baby sounds. He's perfect!

He is also a newborn. So I don't get much sleep. I have had one or two breakdowns in the wee hours of the morning. I thought I was going to be a great mom. I thought I knew what, how, and when to do for my son. Little did I know, its a day to day, learn as you go, tough love situation. Some days are hard, some days are easy. Some days are full of smiles, some are full of tears. Nobody tells you how truly hard its going to be. Nor do you really understand how wonderful it is going to be until it happens to you.

I guess what I am trying to say is, it is the hardest, best, most rewarding thing I have ever done. I want to be honest and give a real picture of how things are in my life just like I have always done with my blog. I never want to portray this perfect life now that I have been blessed with my son. My blessing is huge but that doesn't mean everyday is going to be perfect. That doesn't mean I am never going to ask myself "Why did I sign up for this?" or "Why did I want this so bad?" I will however, continue to thank God every single day for my son and strength to care for him. 

My little family