Christmas Time is Here

Well, moms in the kitchen, I'm on the couch with the pups and Grandma. Greg is fixing moms computer. The kids are in EPT 800 miles away. Jay is waiting for Loraine to get home from work. I am happy and sad all at the same time. I can't help but be happy during this time of year yet I feel empty too.

This is the first Christmas that my dad is not alive. I most likely wouldn't have seen him, but I most certainly would have talked to him. I know he's in a better place but I just wish we would could talk. (Merry Christmas dad, I love you)

On another note, the holidays are no fun without kids. I feel like I have said that before. Oh, I did, on Thanksgiving. It's sad because every year I pray, dream, and wish for a child that God has not YET given me. I wonder what his plans are, although they are not for me to know. I hope that one day soon I will be blessed with the one gift that is more priceless than any other.

Merry Christmas to all!

* Can't wait to open up all the gifts!!