Payton

Many years ago I taught pre-school in Coppell at a place called Smart Start. I had a beautiful, blue eyed, smart little girl named "Payton" in my class. She was very special to me and after having her in my life for 3 years I decided to name my child after her. My husband chose this same name but for very different reasons. He was a big One Tree Hill fan and he loved the relationship "Payton" had with her dad on the show.

I decided to write a book called "Paytonisms" because "Payton" in my class always said the cutest, smartest, funniest, and most clever phrases. I started writing them all down but never....I mean, have not YET written the book.  

Anyway, since then a couple of things have happened. I told a friend over lunch that I wanted to name my daughter "Payton".  This friend and I were both pregnant at the time, for the second time. We both lost our first babies to very early miscarriages. Well to make a long story short, she went on to carry her second baby to term. I on the other hand had another miscarriage. My friend named her baby "Peyton" with an "E" instead of an "A". Well to be honest, the baby has a different first name, but they call her "Peyton". Most people don't even know her real name.

I was, and still am, upset about the whole thing. NOT because of the name alone, but because when I called her out on it, she told me that she totally forgot I told her that is what I wanted to name my child. After asking several people if I was over reacting they reassured me that I was not. They all agreed that it was distasteful to take the name a friend was planning on using. ESPECIALLY when that friend suffers another miscarriage and they don't.

So the start of this school year came and I was checking my class roster and what do you know, another "Payton". This one didn't start out as sweet and smart as the last one. She was very sassy! However, We developed a relationship very quickly. She started learning new things, learning to read, and she really took to me. She also gave me more material for my book. :)

To my surprise, I found out today that she is moving and will have to change schools after the Christmas break. I'm heart broken!! God knows best. I am sure he has big plans for "Payton's" future and I pray her new school is just the first step in the right direction for her.

I now have doubts about naming my child "Payton". Mostly because my 'friend' named her daughter "Peyton" and it just feels weird now. However, I will worry about that when the time comes. As of this morning, when I took a pregnancy test and it was negative, God does not yet feel that the time is right for me.

I'll keep waiting.

~ The Game Plan - a movie with the Rock, also has a very cute 'Payton' in the movie and it is one of my favs. One I will own, if I indeed have a daughter name 'Payton'.